Monday, January 31, 2005

JAN 2005

it is amazing how MLM (multi level marketing) can bring a family closer. well, at least my aunties seem to be genuinely benefitting from the very expensive "health restoring girdle business".

their aches (back aches, leg pain, etc) are deminishing and they are all surprised at the good effects. even my grandpa wears the socks that strategically depresses the shin, calf and soles and he says he could walk all day without feeling tired. my aunt swears by it when she goes shopping.

i feel adverse abt MLM becos i feel that most of the prodts are OVER priced.
but of course they claim that any other prodt of equivalence would be more expensive.
im thru with these talks becos ive been thru a dozen of different MLMs and im wasted.
no, i should say i've learnt a lot from the system and i know what works and what does not.

we have been populated with MLM since early 90s and many "friends" whom you thought were dead resurfaced.
they are taught to say that they wanna share what is good with you. or that how they have just made a couple of thousands doing a "no capital down" start up business.
you get my drift.

pls dont mistaken me. im a MLM prodt user. i use nu skin's marine mud, and sometimes the liquid foundation. i use belair's aroma oil and amway's dish washer detergent and many other MLM stuff that i tried and tested workable..

just that i dont like it when ppe keep poaching.
poaching = to encroach, to invade intrude impinge infringe and down right don't take NO for an answer.

i am very patient with ppe like that it's just that they waste my mobile fee.

but wait-- im now in the circle again. the MLM circle. ya,,, that very expensive "healthy girdle" thing. i've ordered a set (!!!!!) and im gonna be "victorian" underneath. you know, there is a reason (a logical reason) why women in the olden days wear girdles. if we dont structure our fats to go to the right places, they would conveniently go to the wrong places. but im honestly LAZY. hence i really dont know if this will be a fad for me.
whatever the case, i still feel that wearing a girdle would be safer then going for "meso" jab... one from the doctor. the chemical would dislodge those fatty blocks that are clinging onto your tyre-like abdomen, or your thick arms. you'll be slim in 3 days. my friend lost an inch on her waistline. real people, real results. sometimes i feel sick that i am on the verge to do something like that. you know, i am against plastic surgery for myself, hence, anything that is foreign to the body would be a no-no for me. to think that i wanted meso therapy is bothering me.... when did i give in to vanity? i have alway been a believer that we should love our body in whatever shape and size, carve it the "hard" way-- exercise, do tonning, no pain no gain. but look at me,,, i had considered the easy way out. to think that i was angry when Koh Ching Mun did the expression ad (dont know if it was expression or some other slimming saloon) but i was angry that Koh, someone i thought quite highly of, would give in to do a slimming ad. i had thought that she was the role model of a modern woman- confident, self-sufficient, comfortable in her body in whatever shape and size. where was the determination? then it DAWNED on me that i was angry with myself, not her. i had thought that i was a role model, with determination, sheer hard-work-pays-off, confident, kind of persona but i was disappointed with myself when i gave in and started planning for meso. aka- the easy way out.
i cant say for sure that i wont attempt to do meso in future, but for now-- i am aware of my insecurities. i am opting for the girdle for the time being and shall let you know if it has any impact in my life. baring it all for you.

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

the wakeboard has got a "P" plate on it (provisional driving plate!). telling us we are "wannabes"? Posted by Hello
not bad for a first-timer. daring to try. Posted by Hello
my sis can stay up for the longest but the style is not so great huh? got to be gungho a bit, work on the posture.  Posted by Hello

Monday, January 24, 2005

Friday, January 14, 2005

keep out Posted by Hello
cousies and one cousie-to-be...? Posted by Hello
he's so cute. you know what he sang at a forfeit? "shut up just shut up shut up" wa lau. hou shen ke wei! Posted by Hello
mei yi Posted by Hello
you know what's that lucky PRIZE?  Posted by Hello
cousies@xmas Posted by Hello

Thursday, January 13, 2005

teaching new tricks to an old dog

im the old dog. i wonder how long will it take for me to learn to play a short and simple piece on the piano. the c-d-e-f-g notes for the right is totally opposite of that on for the left. and i dont recognise the notes that are some on space while some on lines. gosh, what have i got myself into? i always remember an old fren's comment that "i've bitten more than i can chew". and i tend to be like that. but ironically, i dont think it is a bad thing becos ive always believed in perseverance. i am a stubborn creature so i dont quite give up on anything i want. having said that, many times ive given up on things i thought i want. for instance; many people are shocked or surpurised that im not gonna teach. cos this time last year, i was gonna teach. but i thought i better try out before committing. hence i went to take a nite course that is for a year. having committed to the course, many of my frens thought that i will teach. but the truth is-- the real situation is really unlike the ideal. sure, i am patient and loving and ah-hem, am a great model for the young, but it is really too much work. perhaps it is our local school's situation where one teacher handles 15 children. you know, the moment you step into school, leave your bag, you are working non-stop. till whatever time, 6 or 7. there is no time for you to pee. sure there is but you gotta hurry. before some kid bites another. whatever the case, i apologise for misleading any of you that i would teach. i really thought i would. but right now, im just happy to be doing marcom. i love business, trade and commerce. i have merchant blood. yesterday, we were at a presentation to pitch for a project. i walked out feeling really satisfied. no, i didnt do the presentation, it was my colleague. im not up-to-standard really. and i wonder when the hell will i be competent to do a presentation on my own, handle client on my own. i can never have that kind of confidence. how how how? ok before i start to feel lousy about myself, i wanna tell you abt the good feelings i had. you know when you absorbed a lot of knowledge, you have this sense of fulfillment? you feel really happy that your mind has been nourished? it's mental food for me. i was very satisfied. we had big silly idea-- to propose a fire festival in singapore. but our client liked the idea becos it was big and they want a big bang to announce their presence. before i know it, some fire crackers went off outside. funny. who's playing with crackers? oh the boss. the company was sold to a petroleum company for dunno how many millions. no wonder the boss celebrates. i would. if my company is being bought for millions, i can take a break for a while. do you know that once you've become a millionaire, having more millions will be easy? becos if you've made it once, you would know that repeating it is possible. the cross-over effect is profound as i was told. the difference in having $9,999 and $10,000 is not that $1. it is the feeling of having $10,000. so it's the same for ever $100K, $1000K. i love it when i learn and absorb from a person or from a situation. i think i am hungry for growth. that's why desite my impossible income at this moment, i am totally at peace and happy to "work for free". here, i am able to make ideas come true. concepts, ideas etc, move them along -- and voola! an event, a product or whatever has been born. i enjoy that.


Tuesday, January 11, 2005

say yes

say yes
last night, we bought a car. it is nothing much to shout about but i am really happy.
it solves my problem during CNY-- you know, everytime basking under the scorching
sun waiting for a cab. with mom, dad & sis in toll. sometimes it can be really bothersome
becos we get all worn out waiting under the sun.
plus now that i have a bigger family-- my mom-in-law, who is handicapped due to a
stroke, and sis-in-law, also handicap as she has celebral parsy (not sure spelling).
everytime we had to either call a cab, rent a car or borrow a car. we would like to
perhaps bring them out more often. go to the park and the beach more often.
oh before you think it is a brand new shinny car, i'ld better tell you it is a very old
car but functions just as well. it is all that ive asked for, leather seats, sports pedels
and stiring wheel. it's really a small 1L Daihatsu, just nice for me to run on it.
it was a fluke that we bought the car at a good price. well........ i dont believe in
fluke hence, i would say that it was in God's grace that we walked into this good deal.
both bren and i are always very blessed. we always get exceptional deals.
exceptionally good deals. sometimes, people get upset with us. not that they intentionally
get angry with us, they just think that we get our way effortlessly. so yes! i will be practicing driving and piano this month. first lesson tomorrow.

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

she is amazing. got 8 for o'levels. that was 2 years ago.  Posted by Hello
pretty girls Posted by Hello

Monday, January 03, 2005

what if there is no new year

i read from a book that says, actually, there is no such a thing
as "time". it says Man created systems to measure time but
really, there is no time. we try to "read" time by measuring
changes, changes in season, changes in movement, changes
by nature, aging and all but actually, all these methods are
man made.

well, to some extend it's correct. or else how can we once
in a blue moon adjust our time to be more in-line
with each other (country to country, region to region).
but we really do need to have the concept of time so that
life has meaning. imagine if last year was a "bad" year, if there
is no time; no "new year" then you'll be bloody stuck with the
same "bad" year. but then you'll ask-- then how do i explain
that we grow and age? we grow from baby to toddler to young
child to teen., to adult till our body cant function anymore
then we physically cant move an inch. so how can i say that
there's no "time". well.... our body grow, our cells grow, the
tree grow, the tide moves etc etc but that is just growth isnt
it? we measure the physical changes and movements and
systematically record them till we have a standard format
to measure time. anything that exceeds the norm will be
variation. eg; if an average joe or jolin lives till 120 it is like
wow! how did she do that, what was her diet/lifestyle/philosophy?
blah blah. so that is something different.

so anyway, i am not open for debate i am just talking aloud
cos it is 2005 and i love it! waa haha. i love new year. i can
"restart" like a PC to reboot. anything that wasnt working or
got hung just gotta cut loss (loss of data loss of time) and reboot
to get moving. learn from mistakes and do things better.
this year, i will dedicate more time for friends. never neglect
any relationships, of course unless you choose to. i have signed up
for piano lessons. i can hear you laughing (like the interns in my
office,,,, they laugh their heads off) who goes learning piano at
such old age? well.. i do. i have a lot of "JUST FOR FUN" things
to do this year.
(1) piano
(2) painitng
(3) sun tan till golden
(4) emm... DJ scratching workshop (low priority)
(5) resume wake boarding. love it but now very scared....
very tiring one you know? muscle ache for weeks! now you can
imagine how lax my muscles are. really damn unused.
(6) tennis with young cousie (she's been holding me responsible
cos i promised to play with her since last yr) you know, if you said
you'll do something and never get round to do it, for that case itself,
you have failed. you did not "succeed" with action. intention + action
= success. hence, we must always be mindful of what we say we'ld do.
(7) drive. i CONFESS that i am not confident on the road.
BECOS i really cant see super well.... after lasik in 1999....
now i kind of need glasses (50?) but im not used to wearing them
and i DONT want lenses anymore. how? honestly, i am very insecure
that i cant see well... ok. i'll do SOMETHING about it. i met a french
lady at the organic shop. she is a banker by day, yoga instructor by
night. she is quite old... 50 plus plus? but she looks brilliant. her
face is so clear you can almost see her aura shine. she told me that
she is on a detox programme that helps clear ther colon. she regained
75degree of her eye sight in 3 months. (!!!!!) each eye ok. her optician
was shocked and amazed. im happy to learn abt this. at least i know
that there is HOPE to regian my 20/20 vision. so, ya, im gonna try
driving again. this year. very soon. by april i should be on the road.

before i forget.. i wanna tell you abt my christmas last year.
it was one of my happiest christmas. remember i said abt a group
of cousins that i wasnt very close with? we organised a party for
all cousins and only cousins, no dads moms aunts uncles. only
cousins and their kids. it was really fun. we actually got to know
each other better thru games. lots of fun and laughter and you
know what? --- love was in the air.
yap. i said it. love was in the air.
i must say that the effort we make to rebuild the bond is really
sweet. bygones are bygones isnt it? im appreciative for the fact
that we make it a point to stick together.
one of my cousin in NS "bought" his duty for $200. i dont know
WHY they term it as "bought duty" i insisted that it should be
termed "Bought Leave" becos he had to pay his friend to cover
his guard duty so that he can leave. so it should be bought leave
not bought duty.
anyway-- he's so broke and he squeezed the money to buy leave
on christmas day so that he can join our gathering.
that is him. always being mistaken as the problematic one.
i feel that as long as the adults dont impose on him what to
do with his life, there's no problem. so the problem is the adults
isnt it? wa haha.
hey. i wanna go stay at jakarta at his GF's mansion.
i shall call for a cousin mad-nite-out-in-jakarta. should be fun.
(8) cousin mad-nite-out-in-jakarta.

that's my "FOR FUN" list.